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[cold_dry_pieces]

This has been a welcome change... more often than not the City sees fit to off us, not bring us back to life. Not that it makes a big difference here, really.

I do appreciate the irony, though. Easter and all.

I will admit... It'd be nice if this didn't end at midnight.

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[suicideslowly]

I don't think I'd ever be able to make it through a day like this without wanting to trade the very next for that life back.

[cold_dry_pieces]

I'll admit, the idea's been on my mind and this does nothing to lessen the temptation. I'm not sure what I'd be willing to part with, though.

You know I've been here for a year, now? A little more, actually.

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[suicideslowly]

The standard fare seems to be memories for a life, which at once seems equitable in that I don't know what else could ever pay for a life, yet completely unfair at the same time. I had things I was more than willing to forget, though, and so I suppose that made the deal easier for me.

[suicideslowly]

A year... really. That's... well, I don't know if impressive is quite the word to use for it, but it's the best that I can think of at the moment. Has it begun to feel like home?

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[cold_dry_pieces]

Yeah, that's what I'd heard. I'm not sure I'm willing to give my memories up, though. For better or worse, I'm the sum of my experience.

[cold_dry_pieces]

...It's felt like home for quite a while, honestly. Though it's a little weird to say it.

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[suicideslowly]

True enough, and a choice I can understand. I guess I just feel like some of my past experiences didn't add much.

Hilariously enough, though, they left a great deal untouched. The emotion, gut feelings. It puts everything into a bit of a blur.

[suicideslowly]

It could come to be everyone's home with time, I feel. It's just that some of us have more reason to acclimate than others.

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[cold_dry_pieces]

I suppose there are things I could part with. It isn't an easy choice, though. But... well, after a year, maybe it's time for a change.

[cold_dry_pieces]

Does it feel like home to you?

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[suicideslowly]

It's your choice to make. The way I think about it, you lose experiences from the past, but it's in exchange for coloring your future differently. Every experience from the moment you make that decision becomes different.

[suicideslowly]

Never consistently. There will be days when I feel like this is just like moving to a new place, cutting off previous connections. But people come and go too abruptly for it to feel quite right.

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[cold_dry_pieces]

It's really a matter of which is more important-- memories, or the convenience of feeling... normal. Yesterday it was a more philosophical question, though. You're right. Having a taste of it makes me miss it more.

[cold_dry_pieces]

I know what you mean. Not knowing who'll still be here in a day, a week, a month... after a while it gets difficult to keep investing yourself.

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[suicideslowly]

You could always ask for a caveat. A trial period, if you will. I ended up switching my deal around a couple of times before finally settling.

[suicideslowly]

It's possible to keep investing, it's just that after a while... you start investing in yourself and not others. And that's a dangerous pattern to fall into.

[cold_dry_pieces]

I think I'd rather choose and be done with it, if I do.

[suicideslowly]

Fair enough.