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[cold_dry_pieces]

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This isn't what I had in mind.

One day and six months, six months of honesty and relative peace, all lost at the whim of the City. Bringing back my brother, but not the brother I knew. Whose trust I had earned. Instead I find my family is not yet my family, only concerned with her safety, at whatever cost necessary. A price I've paid, which he hasn't even taken. It almost seems an insult, considering the efforts I've made, honoring my promise in his absence, to no avail. Met with unfamiliarity. It barely even suffices as a bargaining chip; I'm sick of good behavior on all fronts. Tch, or nearly, but this isn't about what I've been doing, so much as what I haven't.

He doesn't even know who I am. Doesn't recognize that I am what he is; destroyed and wrought in the same moment.

And so? Do the games resume? Difficult, with her here. I can't have my accustomed brand of fun, but certainly there must be some way to wake his memory, so far from our home. I'd rather show than tell.

Hmn. Almost comforting, at that-- back to rewriting the rules, back to artistry. I can't unmake my mistakes, but I won't deny or apologize for them.

Time enough for all this; given a new opportunity. In a way, perhaps I'm grateful.

At least I won't be bored.
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My eyes have been black all day.

I'm not even sure what that means. Mood-ring wise.

|[ooc: and d'oh now I have to run, orz. >_< will reply later and/or in the morning, sorry! ♥]|

Comments

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[holymadonna.livejournal.com]

Black doesn't usually stand as positive emotion, Doctor. Are you quite alright?

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[cold_dry_pieces]

I'm fine, really... Maybe it's merely an absence of strong inclinations one way or another, today.

Private;

[holymadonna.livejournal.com]

Oh. You mean like apathy?

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[cold_dry_pieces]

More balanced, I'd say.

Rudy just gets this face. But beige in a not-quite-skintone way.

[defend-darkly.livejournal.com]

[cold_dry_pieces]

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[defend-darkly.livejournal.com]

I for one am staying inside today. Can't be too careful.

[Private]

[cold_dry_pieces]

Heh. Afraid you'll dazzle everyone with your wide emotional spectrum?

This is annoying.

[miss-waldorf.livejournal.com]

I'd say it's several levels beyond blue.

[cold_dry_pieces]

Fair enough, but what's blue?

[miss-waldorf.livejournal.com]

Blue is for when you're sad.

[cold_dry_pieces]

I think the chart's wrong, then.

[miss-waldorf.livejournal.com]

Or you could be in denial.

[cold_dry_pieces]

Of my deep-seated sorrow, you mean?

[Voice]

[sitaronthewater.livejournal.com]

People have different meanings for different colors, from what I've seen.

[Voice]

[cold_dry_pieces]

So what does one make of the absence of color?

[Voice]

[sitaronthewater.livejournal.com]

I haven't heard of anyone else who has black. What do you think it means?

[Voice] || whyyy aren't you on AIM ever? xD

[cold_dry_pieces]

I think it means I'm calm and emotionally balanced.

[Voice]

[sitaronthewater.livejournal.com]

Oh. Cool.

[suicideslowly]

I think a great deal of people are placing too much value on a so-called key. Perhaps we should look a little deeper into our own perceptions of color.

[cold_dry_pieces]

Wasn't having a key to your hidden emotions the point of mood rings, though?

[suicideslowly]

Mood ring keys were an attempt to be vaguely scientific, I believe. Given that the rings changed on basis of temperature-- blue being the warmest, and thus presumably the happiest. At least, warmth generally gives people a feeling of contentment, I believe.

Blue here, however, seems to represent much more the stereotypical 'I've got the blues' kind of situation.

[cold_dry_pieces]

If it were temperature-based, that would at least explain why I wasn't registering anything. I think it more likely, though, that I'm just not feeling especially anything at the moment. Boring.

How have you been, Eden? Feeling better?

[suicideslowly]

That's difficult to manage, Rudy. Sure it's not just a combination of all the different emotions? Do these colors function like paint, or like light?

Still nauseated, but more aware of the reasons why. It'll tide over in a few months.

[cold_dry_pieces]

It must be like pigments, since if it were light, that theory would give me white eyes. Which I'm kind of glad didn't happen. I wouldn't say I'm in a black mood, though, which is why I'm assuming it's something else.

Oh? Well, as long as it isn't anything too serious...

[suicideslowly]

Only you can tell, I suppose. You don't strike me as the type to try and hide your emotions away, even from yourself. Perhaps neutral it really is, then.

We'll see. I'm not dying, and I guess that's all I can ask for.

[cold_dry_pieces]

I don't usually see the point of it. Well, whatever; kind of a silly curse, isn't it?

That's always a good diagnosis to get.

[suicideslowly]

Silly. Or insightful. But most curses here are like that, aren't they?

It's certainly something, and I won't complain.

[cold_dry_pieces]

If they're not disastrous, yeah.

[police-pinup.livejournal.com]

It's kinda been a while since I was a typical teenage girl, but I think black's supposed to mean you're mad, stressed, tense or excited.

It can also mean you feel nothing, or the ring's broken.

[cold_dry_pieces]

Maybe I'm broken?

I don't really have anything to feel tense about.

[ooc: note; the clinical term for the above statement is 'complete bullshit']

[police-pinup.livejournal.com]

Sure I didn't piss you off bringing up the goose shit?

[cold_dry_pieces]

Not at all.

[Did those black eyes just go a little blacker? It is a mystery for the ages.]